Missing a few screws

A little more than 2 months 'til our first year in uni ends, folks. It's been a great half-year/school year.

However I figured out I could use some sitting down, some proper introspection, regarding how my life is going at the moment.

*Everybody proceeds to close their browsers.*

Haha, it gets boring but we pick up nuggets of useful crap from other people's verbal diarrhea. And my point with all this blabbing so far is... none really.

Anyway, my life is picking up at the moment with my newfound activeness with the volunteerism over at RockEd. So far it's the only volunteer group I've sticked to because I like the people and the cause is something I fully identify with. With the uni student council volunteerism and all, I didn't really get the hang of it. And it's too political most of the time for my taste, what with my timing in joining. (Anti-pGMA protests and all.)

The first photoshoot was fun and we're planning another one. And that's really, really great.

But, I need something else to wake up to. I could go back and try my hand again at playing and making music. I mean, it was always fun. But I fear I won't be too dedicated with that. Especially without a studio or space at someone's house to freely practice in as a band it can be pretty hard.

However it can always be something that's just for fun right? And here I am looking for something regular, something to wake up to. I've always been the kind who lives for being able to experience the next day, the day after that, the one after that, and so on. Then I throw in a number of fun stuff on the side. But I'm finding the need to come up with something more solid, tangible.

Which explains my photography. (Honestly though I think I need to be even more involved with that.) And then there's trying to even more incorporate the principles RockEd holds into my life because it's something I truly want to make a stand for: education, alleviating poverty and all that. And then there's school and trying to do my best with studying. Recently I've found myself starting to really process things in class discussions and lessons as an aspiring Anthropologist and not just as a student learning about her lessons.

For the most part though it's still about being able to get to the future and realize I've made things happen.

So here I am, trying to get out there even more, meeting new people and making connections that aren't very volatile, reinforcing those connections, and trying even more not to speak empty words.

It sounds like there's been more happening in my life than the usual family, friends, and getting by. But I'm still missing quite a number of things, I believe. So now I guess I'm gonna go about it like a normal teenager and start going out with friends more and find time to hang out with them. I guess that can be attributed to a few missing pieces of my puzzle. (I have a weird schedule and I end up just talking to my friends online and on the phone for the most part.)

But I'm still missing something. I don't know, any suggestions? Meet new people? But how? It's not very easy to find people I really click with... Or maybe it's just that I've been looking at the wrong places. (I found friends in a pretty unlikely place though - my SE Asia studies class haha.)

Am I just being paranoid about all this and have, in fact, gotten it figured out? (I believe though that we'd always be missing something.) There's something that I can't quite reconcile with myself yet seeing as I've survived without it ever since but I'm afraid I don't know what it is. All I know is that I haven't come across it yet.