Random phrases going through my headache-suffering mind
A now-not-so-splitting headache
A whole chapter of my Calculus book to read
The Illiad reading assignments
My school paper photoessay to worry about (but I guess I'm not worried about it, really)
The coming periodic exams to worry about (Though not all subjects.)
The lovely selected bio books to read. Right...
The SATs to worry about (That. Really.)
College admission to worry about (That, even more.)
My research project that needs to be finished before September ends.
A movie/documentary idea/plot.
The need to learn how to surf.
I'm torn between going to the beach outing on the 19th or not.
My birthday's coming this 31st of August!
I'm worried about having to possibly move out of the country for uni...isn't it too early at 16, 17? And to think that one of my most admired teachers in school joked about having to bring my birth certificate to college interviews because they might not believe me when I tell them I'm a high school senior (another said I look like a first year student) :D hahaha
I'm also torn between staying in the country for uni or not. I mean, I can still have loads of fun arranging frequent out of town trips if I stay in the country. I mean, we have 7000+ more Islands to explore.
I still find time to go online despite my minorly splitting headache.
Ah. Life can never get more real than this. :-*
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So.............
This coming Tueday I am joining my first ever photjournalism convention and competition. I'm not sure if digital photography is included or it's strictly old school so I'm borrowing an old school SLR from someone else because I don't have one and have yet to dwell on the beauty of classic photography. I've never used so much of the word photography in one sentence :D Anyway, I'm thinking I should invest on one of them film cameras. Or one of the new ones, that integrates old school and digital photography.
And I just found out that although all specialized types of photography employs artistic touches and such I am more of a photojourn than artistic photography person, if you get what I mean. Oh well. Nobody gives a shit ;)
Exams are next week and the UPCAT this coming saturday. There was the first Super! radio this morning and there's Queer Eye tonight.
Unusual adrenaline rush-inducing things
I get easily excited over simple things, such as receiving unexpected replies from certain people...even just on email. Like now, I just received a reply from Dr. Bradbury from the Australian National University. And he gave me a copy of the manuscript that contains linamarin extraction...which I couldn't just find anywhere. If Einstein visited me from the dead I'd probably be too stoked to function and will die happily after. You know, those things. I just think it a little surreal to get a reply form these people and know that they actually payed mind to what you were asking them. These things make me giddier than butterflies=in-your-stomachs-caused-by-lovey-dovey things. If I ever meet a great scientist, still living of course, or someone like Brady Barr(sp?)...or even just have them reply to a pathetic email, it'd probably own other crap like getting your first kiss. I'm that crazy, I know.
Late Night Madness [Panganim]
I'm hungry. It's about 10 minutes past 11. I'll read a bit about the ComSci recitation for tomorrow. I'm planing to cram/copy the answers to the Chem probset tomorrow. I just remembered I made an awesome research paper for Physics last year about blackholes and the Information Paradox. Smash mouth is on TV right now. Wait. Why the hell are they there? I just took some quizzes.
your inner self is intelligent, spiritual and calm. You often think that people have reasons for doing everything, right or wrong.
your outer self is slow, reasonable and graceful. Your outer self is transparent, people see right into you.
inner vs. outer self tested by ibiki |
I am ... to others... by ibiki
To others, you are one ray of hope and a great buddy to have, but you really can get stubborn at times.
The east coast could be more fun than the west coast. But no. I still prefer Hawai'i. But what about high end living? Hahahaha I don't belong there somehow. I'd rather hop from country to country in 6 months interval or something. What do I see myself as a cultured dirtbag for anyway if I don't get in a bit of couture in that dirtbag lifestyle? Oh no. I'm rambling senselessly. But I do have a train of thought that I'm following. I'm just saying I'm rambling but I really am not.
I saw Hilary Duff and her sister's video on TV again by the way. What a way to end the night. And just now Answer the Phone is just on. Well, it's a half decent song. I guess... I pulled out a CD while studying for Physics awhile ago by the way, for lack of something classical. Lostprophets seem to do the trick. I don't have any death metal here to stimulate brain cells but some modern/generic rock would do I guess. Actually, it does.
Answer the phone. I know that you're home. I wanna get you alone. And do it again, do it again.
Wait. On second thought. It's not realy a half decent song by the chorus. Let's make that about 25% decent. Er...no. Around 20%. Or better yet, 19.98% because I'm a stingy brat. Every 0.01% counts ;)
Craziness.
These are the time of our lives before we get to experience the real time of our lives ;)
I have now developed a stronger affinity to blogging. Blame it on the 3-day vacation.
I am about to study for the Physics long test tomorrow. No, not review, but study. I have to relearn everything because I couldn't quite understand it no matter what. Right now, 11 browser windows are open, all containing Electrostatics related text, I have downloaded 2 pdf files about Electrostatics and am in the process of downloading an eBook about Electrostatics.
Oh wow. Oh joy.
I Physics book is locked in the locker. It sounds stupid, I know. The lock magically changed its combination on its own. The other Physics book, the one which I actually like better, is well... I haven't read it yet. Things are usually shorter and more to the point online. Plus there are available practice problems with solutions. Those are what I need. I will still be reading the school-issued textbook though
Oh well. Let me get on with this studying. But before I leave... *laughs maniacally* I got a 103/205 on our simulated UPCAT. HAHAHAHAHA Well, it was unfair since we only had 3 hours to answer it. It's 50% passing but that's a devastatingly low score. I know I didn't study, didn't take review classes over the summer and all that. But the real reason that I failed does not lie in my inability answer correctly, rather my inability to finish the English portion quickly. As a consequence... I wasn't able to answer the whole Filipino part, save for around 4-6 questions. B)
Idiotic Craziness and Reality TV
Yes, you can see I was distracted half way through my post. I don't know. I could have just edited the other post after I came back from being hypnotized by the dang TV (stupid things are hypnotic, for me at least...my curious mind wanted me to watch the thing even though I know it's utter garbage). But no, I didn't. I thought it added 0.27% laugh factor to the blog. Oh wait. It didn't? Even just 0.27%? :(
Well yeah. It was a The Go-Go's cover, Our Lips Are Sealed. I give them some credit but I couldn't distinguish between the two of them during those close-up scenes. Or was my mind just playing a cruel trick on me? The video's stupidity was partly amusing. The voices were still annoying. Haylie Duff's voice was just a notch less annoying than Hilary's. Meh. This is not utter dissing. I still gave them some credit, you know. Look a few sentences back.
Anyway. I was just about to tell how my day went. I woke up at 7:30 and ate some left over mashed avocado from the one whole avocado I sliced open last night. It was as big as my face so there was plenty of it. I did some reading on General Science and Biology as review for the UPCAT. After that, I went online while simultaneously trying to watch the TV. I ate lunch and then tried reading my Bio book for the upcoming longtest whilst watching Blue Crush again. I somehow make it a point to watch the movie weekly.
By the end of the first disc I was able to finish 2 pages of my bio book, w00t. Then I decided not to watch it any further and tried seeing which shows I could watch on TV. There was nothing exceptional on HBO. I left it on some channel I forgot and read up to half of the chapter in the book. Then I came upon MTV, which was airing The Newlyweds. Well, let's just say I left it at that channel. I got more reading out of my book though since there was really nothing to watch on The Newlyweds. I enjoyed snickering at some stupidity though.
The next show caught me though. It was about a girl named Ashlee, from what the commentary said. (These are all reruns by the way, I assume). I was like, 'What the hell? Jessica Simpson has a sister?' Let's just say I was finally distracted and I watched the whole show. It was... interesting. It pained me to hear the demo songs she prepared for her record company's president. It left emotional and mental gashes on me. Fortunately, by the end of the show I was finished with everything I needed to read about Mendelian and Non-mendelian genetics.
It's good to know though that Ashlee refused to be a Hilary Duff, since that was what some record guy told her. She refused to be a Hilary Duff. She said, she doesn't want to be compared to her and to be like her. To quote her, "That's what they did to my sister. They fucking made her be like Britney Spears!" Oh. So you're sister was a victim of manipulative disaster by record labels? Oh, and if I may add... Ashlee is more, er... intellectually elevated, for lack of a more grounded, gentler term, than her older sister.
After that, to my joy there was finally something that I like and actually enjoy to watch on TV. $100 Taxi Ride was on NatGeo! Followed by Chasing Time. Ah, good times. By the time Chasing Time started, which was around 2:30 I decided to open a pack of cheese barrels. After that I followed up a request for leukemic blood sample (that I need for my research) at the Philippine Children's Medical Center. And then I decided to go online.
I went online again and surfed around forums, sent my forgotten research proposal to my research adviser through the YahooGroup, and then tried to see what Ashlee Simpson is really up to now, whether she was able to put out that album of hers. Apparently she was. And she dyed her hair black in the process as well. It was good to know too that she wants a separate name for her band. Not just Ashlee. Apparently, she wanted it so they could be introduced as Ashlee Simpson and the (insert band name).
I like reading through senseless blogs and pseudo-psychoanalyzing people who can't do it to theirselves. So I read the Ashlee and her band diary. While I was doing so, as if by fate or another cosmic joke, I turned my head to see what was on the TV and her music video came up. The singing was not as painful as it was during the show. I guess she improved (remember, the show aired was months late).
I don't approve of most "reality" tv shows, except for The Amazing Race and Queer Eye (if you consider that as one, though I really don't. I just mentioned it.) but I have an odd affinity for certain reality TV shows. They usually don't last beyong 2 weeks though. Sooo... you can expect me to make another post saying I watched The Ashlee Simpson Show again. This certain affinity probably stems out from boredom and a tolerance for crappy things. But the really crappy ones, I cannot stand. Like For Love or Money 2. For Love or Money, the first one, was already damaging and they released a second one. I only watched the last 3 episodes of the first one to know who'll win. I also watched the first episodes of American Idol because they were absolutely funny (the audition videos) and watched the first few episodes of the contest proper mainly because I was trying to monitor Camille Velasco and Jasmine Trias. But when JPL got voted out, I stopped watching. Heh. You may find him horrible but yeah, I supported him. Haha
Ah well. I am now suffering from back pains due to the stool I'm sitting on. My sister broke my computer chair months ago by sitting on it. Yeah. She sat on it and then 5 seconds after, the chair collapsed together with her. lol
Dinner's calling. After this I'd be reading The Iliad until the clock strikes 8:00. Then it's time for Queer Eye. Woohoo. I'm such a happy kid.
Conclusion so far:
I do like crappy reality tv shows after all not because of the true nature of the show but because they are stupidly entertaining. I like the beach so I naturally prefer the west coast over the east coast (But as a kid, I actually preferred the east coast because I wanted to be a Manhattan lawyer. Due to John Grisham novels and Ally McBeal episodes. Oh wow. Oh joy.) But then I realized, east coast can be as much fun. I mean, come on. It should be fun to be corporate Manhattan nuns. ;)
Woohoo
Finally. It is time! It is time for me to merge the Adventures of a Cultured Dirtbag with The Wanderer! Ahahaha! Ahahaha!
Good ol Zimmy insanity. No, the new site will not be called the Adventures of a Wandering Cultured Dirtbag. Oh, wait. I can actually call it that... Hrmm. Nah. I'll stick with Adventures of a Cultured Dirtbag.
Anyway. I'll aimlessly tell about my OMFG IT'S HILARY DUFF AND HER SISTER ON TV!!!! WTF!? *SHIELDS EYES*
A 3 day vacation to finish 2 major requirements, prepare for 3 others and study for the UPCAT
So. I'll tell you how the past 48 hours have been so far. I am currently taking one of my frequent short, self-imposed breaks while doing my final research proposal.
July 23 - Friday
Evening:
I came home early. I didn't eat dinner at home since I dropped by McD's before coming home. I lazed around, trying to give myself some resting space since I was expecting to do non-stop work for the next 3 days.
At around 9:00 I prepared some mashed avocados with milk and veered away from the computer first to watch Analyze That. Good, hilarious movie.
July 24 - Saturday
Morning:
I woke up at 7:30 and started to read some math handouts. I started making an outline for the research proposal, listing things I want to appear and things that need to appear for every section of the Intro, Review of Related Literature and Methodology. A tip: It always helps to make one of those outlines to get your thoughts organized.
I got bored so I went online and stayed so until lunch time. I did gather materials and references for my research proposal though.
Afternoon:
I started making the research proposal, surfing the net after 2 hours and logginf off after an hour to read more on previous math lessons to refresh my memory. I made mashed avocado with milk and condensed milk again.
Evening:
I went online again. You can refer to a few posts down... I was on mIRC and about to disconnect when Ayisse came online. So I had some crazy time talking to her and Kaye. Another hour wasted on a fun, crazy time. I did some of the paperwork again and had some dinner.
After dinner, I proceeded with paperwork only to find out that it's already 8:00 and the Queer Eye encore is on. I watched the show again while trying to do my paper at the same time. Anyway, after the show I did accomplish a considerable amount of work.
I think it was after Queer Eye that I went online and talked to Ayisse and Kaye on IRC. Anyway, I was still online, talking and doing stuff. I finally decided to disconnect and finish the Introduction and Methodology of my research paper. I was 2/3 done after a full day of 60% play and 40% work.
Before sleeping I dropped by my grandma's room. She was talking with my mom. I channel surfed and saw 8 mile on HBO. I never got the hang of that movie. After watching 10 minutes, I concluded that Kaye can become one of those impromptu dissing rapper or can join one of those improptu (dissing) rap contests.
July 25 - Sunday
Morning:
Woke up at 7:30 again and checked my mail. Surfed around the net visiting people's blogs. I went online and as usual, nobody is on IRC that "early". I had to go mass then. After mass we went to grab some french fries and Sundae at McD's again. That constituted my breakfast. We waited for my mother to finish doing the groceries and headed for home. I had bulalo for lunch. Wow. It's proving to be a cholesterol-y day.
Afternoon:
I tried to pop a pirated copy of Troy in the DVD but my little brother came in and demanded for me to turn back the channel to Cartoon Network. He threatened to scream his head off with that annoying voice again. I decided it owuld be better to do paperwork again.
I read about 2 hours worth of science review and math (refreshing things I learned from the previous day). After that I did more and more paperwork. It is now 5 minutes to 6 and I want an avocado again. And Orange County (the movie) is on TV again. I like this movie. And Kip's vampire tv series that is really about the german thingy thingy during the world war 2 thing. :lol: It's inspiring and besides, Collin Hanks' "What the!? No! You couldn't have!" face is a winner.
*** Going online is synonymous to too-frequent mail-checking, mx forums and greytower rp.
Best. Thing. Ever. Since...
I just came from reading the newspaper, which automatically includes reading the latest Super! until the pages have turned into ash. Then, the best thing ever since McFly decided to take out the pop and dwell more in 70s sound with their music happened...oh wait that has not happened yet. Anyway, back to the best thing ever since... Super! is launching Super! radio! Woohoo. (Whew, I've never used so much exclamation points in a sentence ;)) Read today's Super! Inquirer or scavenge some from the streets if you don't have a copy. Tals Diaz wrote a very true, honest and amusing (oddly, it is for me) article. (Which is, by the way, true most of the time). Gino dela Paz's article is another gold. His article made me itch for feel-good, beach-y music. And I have to visit The Slides online.
All this is so nice, the excitement makes me want to weep. If they're ever into publishing as a magazine, I can just see it happening.
[Premature] Late Night Madness Five?
Funny chat transcript. For those who don't understand Filipino... well you'll get most of the funny parts. Most of the convo's in English anyway. Although I don't know who will be bored enough to read it. hahahahaha
And no. Whatever you might presume from this, I am not lesbian. kthx
<`kLar> why, you're at the same level of pseudo-intelligence?
<`am> hahahahaha who'll teach you?
haha
<`am> i guess their mom's good at the teaching thing
<`kLar> my dad..my..uh..dog
<`kLar> ah i don't have a dog hahahaha
<`am> nakita mo na yung buy a brother sweepstakes sa site nya? ang cute ng little bro nya hehe
<`kLar> cat pala cat
<`kLar> haha
<`am> hahahaha
<`am> busted lol
<`kLar> hahaha
<`kLar> teka
<`kLar> shit
<`kLar> crush ko na to..astg 21 amp
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<`am> lol
<`kLar> o ha, andami ko ginamit na pauso sa phrase na yun hahahaa
<`am> she looks pretty good too hahahahaha /lesbian love
<`am> HAHAHAHAHAHA
<`am> may nakilimutan ka pang isang word
<`kLar> ayyyyyyyy
<`am> am...napaka lupet, astg 21 amp
<`kLar> hehe crush ko nga eh wag mo agawin hahahaha
<`am> don't worry, i'm not crushing on her. hahahaha
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<`am> no lesbian love from my side. no. none.
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<`kLar> i am full of it ahahahahahha *like zim*
<`kLar> shit nkakaaliw hahaha
<`am> hahahahahahha
<`am> oh so nice the zimmy laugh
<`am> check it out: ((edited out url))
* `am is stalker
<`am> hahahahahaha
<`am> ahahahaha ahahaha /me is stalker
<`kLar> ahahahaha anu un stinuff nia kapatid nia sa barbie doll box????
<`kLar> hahhahahaha
<`am> oo astig kaya. kasiya. ang qt qt. hehe
<`kLar> hahahaha
<`kLar> haaay
<`kLar> i shall sleep sound tonight hahah
<`am> teh gay. the impossible gayness is overwhelming. this sucks so much. have you seen the page?
<`kLar> ah not yet
<`am> if you see it you might not sleep soundly at all...with recurring thoughts of my sickness
<`kLar> hehe i can never measure up to shauna..we have a stupid connection
<`kLar> i wish we had DSL *kayekayekaye*
<`kLar> hindi ako nagpaparinig haha
<`am> hahahaha
<`kLar> i haven't seen the friendster link yet
<`kLar> there
<`kLar> ive seen it
<`iamout_-kaye> wha
<`iamout_-kaye> what
<`am> hahahahaha
<`kLar> you're a freak
<`kLar> haha
<`am> i told you.
<`am> you are now officially not sleeping soundly tonight.
<`am> sinabi lang yan sakin ng busmate ko. i had to see it for myself of course.
<`kLar> gahahahhaa
<`am> hahahaha
<`am> now i'm wondering.
<`am> KAYE!!!! Which is sicker, liking a gay or liking another girl?
<`am> hahahahaha
<`am> hahahaha
<`am> now i'm wondering.
<`am> KAYE!!!! Which is sicker, liking a gay or liking another girl?
<`am> hahahahaha
<`iamout_-kaye> gosh, am, ur an addict
<`iamout_-kaye> licking the girl. hahaha
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<`am> HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
<`kLar> "licking" ?? check your spelling
<`kLar> that sounded wrong...very wrong..
<`iamout_-kaye> ayputa
<`iamout_-kaye> haha
<`am> indeed. it's sorta kinda lika parang medyo may pagka wrong. you know?
<`iamout_-kaye> liking a girl stil
<`iamout_-kaye> liking a girl still
<`iamout_-kaye> god
<`am> :O that was an honest mistake!?!?!?
<`am> kaye....what is really going through your mind!?
* `kLar dies
<`am> :-*
<`iamout_-kaye> i feel drunk sorry
<`kLar> am you can go and bury yourself now
<`am> feeling drunk...pseudo drunk is better than being drunk. hahaha or not.
<`am> why!? did i say something sorta kinda lika parang medyo may pagka so like sagwa?
<`iamout_-kaye> am! stop with the song thingee!
<`iamout_-kaye> its abso-fucking-lutely weird for you to say it
<`iamout_-kaye> haha
<`kLar> *muffled laughter*
<`kLar> *muffled laughter*
<`kLar> haha
<`am> sorry. marvin's influence has a high frequency. let me close the window and put styrofoam on it.
<`iamout_-kaye> haha
* `am closes window and tapes styrofoam
<`am> oh wait...is that going to block the frequency?
<`am> i mean, the waves? not the frequency.
* iamout_-kaye confused
<`kLar> where's the styrofoam?
<`am> good god. ang corny. hahahaha.
* `am points
<`am> can't you see it?
*** I had to pu t a ` infront of the names so they won't be taken for html tags. Only `am really is `am.
Correction
I made a correction in my previous post. I just realized that Charmed every Wednesdays is at 8:00pm as well. Grargh. Well, I'm not feeling sleepy or tired so I'll wait for the 11:30pm rerun. Let's hope I don't fall asleep. But this episode is somewhat corny because it involves Chris turning into an evil string-shooting spider clone. Er... Spider-man?
(Premature) Late Night Madness [Four]
It's just 7:00 in the evening but the madness has already settled in. Actually, it's a certain madness that's been brewing for the past year already.
Have you ever felt like not getting mad because you'll end up forgiving the person in the end anyway? So you skip the uneasy part (of having to be in bad terms with each other) instead. Have you ever felt like complaining about something painful but skip it since you know you'll get used to it in the end anyway? Well, it's been like that for me and my emotions become indifferent to the point that it seems to be that I don't feel anything. You "feel" like you're not feeling anything...I know, it's a bad description.
All those are not so destructive things, but what worries me is that I start skipping the temporary good things knowing, or really just thinking, that it won't make much difference anyway. I tend to miscalculate and underestimate what things can really do. Often times somebody else says going through something would be hard, but then when I'm already in that situation I go "Okay, so it's hard. So what?" I've grown to become indifferent in many things it worries me in the sense that I become confused on whether other people "feel" or think the same. It worries me since I might be turning too indifferent, I don't feel anything significant anymore towards many other things. If I can skip going through something, I tend to skip it.
See, I'm even confusing you. The point is, do I just think too much about things? Am I putting some sort of hindrance to the natural flow of things? Have I turned into an emotionless...something? Maybe yes, maybe no. It could just be all in my fucking little mind. It's quite funny when I think about it now that I contemplated this a while ago while watching MTV (a show called Loveline or something), eating coconuts, switching channels to see Kikay Maching and wanting to get a copy of Hanson's latest album. It's not just funny, it's another the-world-is-upside-down scenario. I'm sick. Mentally, no longer physically. Or maybe, this mental sickness is an effect of physical (and mental in part) exhaustion.
Apart from the emotion rant though, I still possess the humane part of me by not wanting to miss any shows. Last monday night though, I didn't watch Queer Eye or Charmed because I was too tired and too sick to do so. I didn't do anything last night as well because I was too sick and lazy. I had to cram a senseless review for my chem long test this morning. Despite that, I got a happy 46/50. Yeah, that's good enough for me. Pathetic? Well, screw you. That's pretty much an achievement for me.
Going back to the topic of not wanting to miss any shows tonight is Amazign Race 5 and Charmed night. Good thing there are no homeworks for tomorrow (though I kept on promising to work on my final research paper). Here's a list of things I watch religiously. And alas, these are pathetic.
Monday
9:00pm Queer Eye for the Straight Guy (ETC)
9:00pm (during Queer Eye commercial breaks) Charmed (Studio 23)
Tuesday
Nothing. But I try to see if there's anybody good on Top of the Pops at 9:00. Which is a rare event.
Wednesday
8:00pm Amazing Race 5 (AXN)
8:00pm Charmed (Star World-again, I try to watch it during Amazing Race commercial breaks)
11:30 Charmed replay
Thursday
None
Friday
9:00pm (just started watching this) Dead Zone (RPN 9)
Saturday
8:00pm Queer Eye replay
9:00 or 10:00pm National Geographic special
Sunday
12:00 Charmed replay
9:00 or 10:00pm National Geographic special
Not because I didn't write anything under some days I don't watch TV. In fact I do. But it's mostly turned on Nickelodeon, Star World or National Geographic. Some other channels I frequent are AXN, ETC and HBO or Star World if there's any good movie on.
Other shows I watch that aren't listed on there (since I forgot what time and day) are the NatGeo specials (which varies), Iron Chef, $100 Taxi Ride, Chasing Time, Invader Zim (even though I seem to have exhausted all episodes save for some 3 others), Spongebob Squarepants (if it isn't a replay-since I seem to have exhausted all the episodes as well) and CSI (if I chance upon it).
There, I just told you my daily TV routine. The only "reality" shows I watch are Queer Eye, because it's absolutely funny and Kyan is there, and Amazing Race, because it's interesting, packed with adventure and, well, amazing. Plus it's not all subjective and it doesn't look too scripted because well, the toughest and luckiest really do win. But my number one reason would be: Come on, it's the Amazing Race! (Since you see, I understand if you don't like Queer Eye. But seriously, I've told 2 people to watch and they enjoy it so much and yes, I know straight males who watch it).
Well then. Ta ta. The Amazing Race 5 premiere is nearly on.
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